New Beginnings

My big boy started school this year, here in Vic it is called Prep. So he did 6 months of three year old kinder, and a year of four year old kinder and now off to big boy school, sniff! But really he was so ready for it. Look how handsome he looks in his uniform. His first few days were a bit meh with him telling me it was boring, but now he has made a few friends and has a little bit of a crush on a lovely girl, he is enjoying it more. And I have made a friend, and a couple of people I say hi to not the same as friends! Hee hee. 

I received an offer for a place at Uni so I am off to Uni for the year to study a Grad Dip Ed in Education (Early Childhood) which qualifies me to be a four year old kinder teacher among other things. So the plan is to apply for work for next year, as long as it all goes to plan and I pass! Then next year we will be saving saving saving  and paying off debts and then maybe in the last half of the year start looking for a house to buy, eeekkkk/yay! Of course it is great to have plans but other people need to be on board with these plans too, ie my husband!!!! He needs a full time job. Hmmm.

So poor little Lita is stuck with no mummy 5 days a week and no Dylan either. She is being cared for by daddy two days a week, granny one day a week and daycare two days a week. She hates daycare, sigh. Hates it. She is so used to being with me. And at home. I am hoping she gets used to it, at the moment she is sad oh so sad about going. This morning when I dropped her off she started crying as we pulled in to the centre, then was putting her seatbelt back on when I was trying to get her out of the car. So very sad is our Lita, our almost birthday girl, turning 2.

The christmas holidays flew by. We did lots of fun things like roller skating, bowling, a trip to adventure park in Geelong, movies, playdates, the pool and lots of playing with each other. I read many, many books 10 at least which was great. I adore reading I forgot how great reading is. I have always been a avid reader but for many years during my twenties and early thirties kind of lost the love for reading but it has returned although this year I will be reading more school books than fun books but that is ok, I will have the rest of my life to read. I hope my kids love reading too, Dylan loves being read to and Adelita is starting to get into it so there is a great potential for them to adore it too.

So new beginnings for us all and here's hoping for a successful prep/uni/daycare year!

Dylanisms

I just came accross this draft for a post that I wanted to do ages ago so here it is.

I have been meaning to write this post for a while I wanted to write about some of the cute things Dylan says. I might add to it now and then too, more for me than anyone else so I can remember all of this in the future. And just to add this is in no way me laughing at the way he pronounces words I think it is adorable.

Today I asked Dylan if Adelita was sleeping in her car seat and he said "Yes he is seeping" and then I said "She is so cute isn't she like a doll" to which he replied "He looks like a seeping eye doll".

Yeddow

Heddatopter - helicopter

Alita - adelita

Gumma - grandma

Ganny - granny

Millamelon - watermelon

Buzdyearlight- buzzlightyear



Tookar - Guitar



Gracey - Gravy

Wow it is working again.

I have seriously neglected my blog for many, many months because the silly thing would not publish my posts but ha ha I have checked today and it is now publishing posts yay yay hip hip hooray.

OMG so much has happened since the last post. Where to begin. I don't actually have enough time right now to do a humungous catch up entry so will write this list as a teaser.

Walking
Talking
School
Uni
Holiday planning
Inheritance
Friends
Weight loss
Babies
Old laptop
New laptop

See lots to catch up on. Stay tuned.

A school holiday play date

With lovely friends Abi, Evie, Niamh and Griffin. Playing girly games, boyish games, silly games, bouncing games, make believe games and building games.

Eating yummy food homemade organic beef sausage rolls, Anna's scrumptious choc chip bread (I am making some tomorrow), fruit, sandwiches, drinking milk and coffees for the mummies.

Laughing, cuddling, dancing and silliness.

A perfect playdate on a wintery afternoon.

The perfect Sunday afternoon?

Could it get much better than this, a hot cup of tea, a pile of decadent sweets and an interesting book on a cold Sunday afternoon. Of course in reality I will read only a few pages, take only a few bites and have only a few sips because I have little ones to tend to but that brief moment I get to myself this afternoon I will thoroughly enjoy.

Yum.

Walking and words

Adelita is walking hooray. She had been cruising and pushing things around for ages months even. And had been walking from thing to thing just a few steps. And she had been able to stand up by herself for a few weeks as long as she felt she had something there to support her if she lost her balance. So two weeks ago she just started walking she stood up and walked it was very exciting we wooped and hurrahed and got very excited. For a few days after this she was still crawling and doing a bit of walking but then only 3 days after she started walking she just became a walker as in she actually very rarely crawls now. And is she proud of herself. You bet she is.

The last few days she has learnt a few new words. Duck is one of them. Ow for when she bumps her head or something. And oh which is supposed to bed oh oh when she does something she thinks she is not supposed like she was tearing up a catalogue the other day (tearing up things is one of her favourite things to do) and she was saying "Oh" with each rip and looking at me so cute!

Happy first birthday my little ladybug.

First birthday

As you can see we had a ladybug party for Adelita's first birthday. It's become a bit of a joke and a slight obsession really with my dear friend A even saying to me "You know she's not a ladybug!". But I just have grown to adore ladybug's and every time I see something with a ladybug on it I am tempted to get it for Adelita. So far she has many ladybug toys, ladybug tops, hats, bibs, shoes, hair clips, and three pairs of ladybig pyjamas to grow into, LOL. What a nut I am. So the theme was ladybugs and I found these super cute first birthday invites at spotlight with ladybugs and butterflies on them and matching party stuff like serviettes, whistles, hats, etc. I then went mad on Ebay getting ladybug themed things for the party bags. It is absolutely amazing what is on Ebay. And of course I made a ladybug cake, not my best effort but I rushed it in the end. But good enough. There was also ladybug balloons and my girl wore a ladybug spotted top with a black tutu, frilly nappy pants, ladybug hair clip (which mostly stayed in) and ladybug sandals, oh so cute. And yes slightly over the top but she looked divine. The party was fabulous with my girl and boy having a fantastic time and little Adelita was very spoilt. Lots of lovely gifts. Some of my faves were a beautiful babushka doll themed music box, ladybug spinning top and cute red ladybug top for winter. My in laws had a rather large rocking horse made for her much to my dismay because A they didn't ask us, B I wanted to get her one a different sort too, and C it really is quite big and our bedrooms are not huge. But they really meant well. I guess it is the sort of rocking horse my mother in law would have loved herself as a little girl and never had and also wanted to get for her own daughter but never had one, so there you go. I am sure when Adelita is big enough she will adore it. And it is such good solid quality it will be able ot be handed down to future generations like some of the furniture Adelita has now from her great grandmother.

Another baby?

So my girl is one, WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Gee that year went quickly. And she has done so much. And come so far from a precious newborn to a pre toddler all in a year. Wow. That went quick. And the next question is do I want to do it again in the near future. Yes I do. I do want another baby and I do want another child. And hubby has said yes. And I am teetering towards going for number 3 at this point. But do I want to do another hard and potentially harder pregnancy, hmmmm. Is it worth it to put my body through it all again. Do i want to do yet another bad labour. I can only assume that these are the realities of another pregnancy and birth. I do not want to have a caesarean and I do not want to have an epidural so that leaves battling it out naturally. I had SPD and high blood pressure and huge weight gains last time do I want that again. The other thing is that hubby has said he does not want to be too old having our third so has suggested trying this year and I am not and don't think I will be ready this year so all of these things to consider. Plus can we afford it. I have spent far too much money on Adelita so would I do the same thing for number three. Possibly. But we cannot afford that. And then when will I go back to work to study and when will be buy our house. Plus I want to lose weight like a lot of weight and I would like to be at my goal wight before falling pregnant so I have at least 15 kgs to get there. I am on the right track though having started lite n easy this week. I will probably do it for a month and then try and go it alone as it is pretty exxy! Hmmmmm a lot to consider. To me I think it would be all worth it to have busy christmases and a full dining table and to squeeze just one more lovely child into my car. LOL. And to fit one more of the gorgeouses that we produce into our lives.

My girl

Something funny Adelita is doing at the moment is smacking her lips when she is hungry, wants milk or sees food and wants it. Very cute. The milk thing has a bit more to it she comes up to me and nuzzles into my cleavage giving it a kiss, and then smacks her lips and looks up at me as if to say "Come on get them out!". LOL. I love it. Dylan did not do this. As my friend A said Dylan knew that there was a time and a place for milk, not that I instilled that in him particularly that was just our breastfeeding relationship. He had boob in the morning sometimes during the day and at night he had a bottle. I was working 3 days a week when Dylan was Adelita's age so it was all different and him and I weren't as good at it as Adelita and I are. She has it during the night all day if she wants and before sleep. But I think perhaps this makes her not as hungry for solid food. Anyway.

Another thing that is different is Adelita is on the verge of walking. She can stand by herself and can take a few steps between things and she is walking everywhere around the house pushing her dolly pram around and anything else she gets her hands on. She is really quite good at it. I think she will be walking properly within the next month. Dylan was 15 and a half months so I am thinking she will be younger. Not much talking here though. Just dada mumma and ta.

Just watched her putting the correct shape in a shape sorter, genius of course! She just loves putting things into things and taking them out which makes it easy when packing things up at music. As soon as the activity is finished and the bag comes out she holds her instrument up and starts going "ta, ta" and puts hers and mine away.

New trampoline

I was so excited like a little girl on christmas eve waiting for this trampoline I got off ebay for Dylan. Sadly it arrived and then he had to wait for 3 days before it could be put up but he did ok. He was very surprised. Now it is up and he is so excited about it. He said to me today "I am so happy about my new trampoline thanks mummy!" cute huh. So excited for him. He has so many things my brother and I didn't have like a trampoline, a cubby, swingset etc. My mum was always so tight with her money and worried that we never go that sort of stuff. I guess also nowadays it is all so much more available and more price friendly to get.

A poem for you baby girl

I am so sorry Adelita I have not been updating my blog with what you have been doing. I don't know why I have not been doing it but every time I go to write I have a mental block and have to walk away silly really. So I write you a poem.

Adelita

Almond eyes
Denim blue
Button nose
Gorgeous ears, flat like mine
Perfect pink lips
Dimples atop two chubby cheeks
Flawless skin
It is all you

High forehead
You got this from mummy
Little chin
Baby hands
Baby feet
Oh so cute
Oh so sweet
Cherub curls
That's what you got

Love saying da
Love saying ma
Love your big brother
Crawling like a little bug
On your pudgy kness
Trying to walk now
With roly thighs and girly bum
Want to be a big girl

But still mama'a baby
Loved
You are so loved
Adored
And cherished
The one we never expected
The girl
My sweet, sweet heart.

8 months old and on the verge....

Of crawling that is. Well you have been on the verge for almost two months now and still not doing it not that I am worried. What does worry me though is that you love sitting on your bottom and doing this pelvic thrust thing which I believe may lead to bum shufling which I do not want you to do. Your granny was a bum shuffler but not for you missy. You hate staying on your tummy too long but I try to push it with lots of toys put in front of you to play with and sometimes I do resort to a dummy just to stretch you out a bit (mind you does not really work) ha! So maybe by 9 months you might be on the move.

Another thing you are doing is trying to pull up on things especially mummy. It is very clever and shows how strong you are. You desperately want to stand up funny thing.

You are loving your baby led solids and tried many new things this month one that you seemed to like a lot was corn on the cob. You have your faves already though, they are blueberries, cheese, cucumber, carrot, pumpkin, meat and toast. But you don't seem to dislike anything so far which is good. You are very handy with your hands and can pick up a blueberry or pea in your palm and get it in your mouth. Your friend Evie does it with her fingers now so I am guessing you will do that in the next couple of months.

You adore your big brother and love to smile at him in between mouthfuls of boob in the morning while we all sit on the couch. You love most things he does and you smile and giggle. Some things you are not fond of are being pushed over, being poked, being pulled and being rough handles, lucky mummy or daddy are usually around to save you. You get it a bit at playgroup too so I am thinking you may end being a tough one. Who knows.

Mummy is still keen to have a third baby and even though some of your brothers behaviour turns me off I realise neither he nor you nor a third bub would be a 4 year old forever. Daddy has said yes too so I guess the ball really is in mummys court and I will see how I am feeling about it all next year. Dylan has requested another baby but a boy one this time, lol. We will see.

Anyway I am sure you are doing lots of other lovely things but I cannot remember at the moment so will tell you another time.

Love you sweet girl.

7 months and new camera

Happy 7 months baby girl. This last month has seen lots of solids activity with you being on (sort of) three meals a day. I say sort of because some days you don't have 3 meals and some days you do and really what you consume is quite minimal. Apart from your porridge with fruit in morning which you wolf down and you also love bread and baby mum mum rusks. You love orange vegies too and I often give you some steamed or roasted chunks for you to eat. So apart from brekky you are doing baby led weaning for your meals. Which I am loving (apart from the mess) but you have taken to it so well and it saves me pureeing all these meals for you. I just cook you up stuff fresh or you eat what vegies we are having. It helps too that we are now eating mostly organic veg and fruit as we get a box delivered weekly. I usually have to top up with some things and try to get organic but can't always. I am trying to also buy only wholemeal bread and have started getting organic pasta, milk and cheese. Plus free range eggs and chicken.

This month also saw you clapping your hands more well sort of clapping you love to wave your arms around and then they make contact like a clap. Your personality is really coming out too you like to smile at people but they really need to work for it. You are starting to recognise the people we see a lot of like Aunty Anna and Evie and Abi, Granny and Grandma and Papa,and you will give them lovely smiles. Strangers though and people we don't see that often really have to work for their smiles but they usually get them eventually. You have also been sitting and working those core muscles you are really very strong and can sit up for quite a long time. You are a very strong willed girl little Adelita and this is coming out more and more every day, if you want something you really try your very hardest to get it. Your teeth are on the move too you already have your bottomo two and now seem to be getting more with you putting you fingers in your mouth a lot and having some bad nights with sleeping. So more coming I suspect.

Mummy got a new digital SLR camera this month and has been using it quite a bit I have so much to learn but I want to have photography as a hobby and want to use my two favourite people in the world as my subjects. So I have been practicing a lot.

Anyway I will more to say for your eight month look in as you have doing more things in the next month.

Bye darling.

PS Mummy is hopeless with this blog and getting the photos in the right position so they are all at the top, oh well!

6 months old today, time is flying.

6 months old today my little beauty. How did we get her so quickly? Yesterday you were a newborn and today you are a baby that can do stuff.

I am so enraptured by you and your developing personality and your overall development as it seems to be happening oh so fast.

It seems like a few weeks ago you were still not really doing much then all of a sudden you did all of this stuff and are doing more every day. Like sitting, playing with your feet, new sounds you are making, more interaction with us. You like touching our faces and looking around at who you are sitting on it is so cute.

Today on your 6 month birthday you got up on hands and knees so I think crawling is just around the corner for you.

We started you on solids 2 weeks ago and so far you have tried pumpkin (loved), avocado (no thanks), broccoli (yuck), potato (nup), apple (you seem to like this), banana (maybe a bit sweet for you) and carrot (loved). I am just mashing stuff up for you at the moment and you can eat it quite well. But in a few weeks we are going to start baby led solids and so I will be giving you chunks of things to eat and see how you go. We skipped right past the rice cereal and purees and this is suiting you and me. I was going to start you on solids at exactly 6 months but a fortnight ago you were so ready for it so we gave it a go and have not looked back. At the moment you are having a milk feed in the morning and then some fruit about half an hour later and then some pumpkin or something for lunch. Next week we might try some porridge with fruit in it for brekky. Yum.

I had no plans of giving you a dummy Adelita but at 6 weeks I gave you one in the car cos you hated it so much and gradually it worked it's way inside and now you seem to be getting a bit more reliant on it to help you sleep. I would like to wean you off it but don't know when to start of how to start. I guess I could just take it away and have a few bad nights/days with you. I would much rather you use me as your dummy and your comfort. I do feed you to sleep every night and every afternoon nap time but a lot of the time as I am transferring you to your bassinet you tend to start opening your mouth for more boobie and so as I can't stay with you all night I usually pop your dummy in so will have to try and figure out a way of getting you to stop doing that. Ha! I only just weaned Dylan off his dummy at 4 and I don't want to be doing this with you.

Mummy has gone a bit overboard on clothes for you and has been feeling guilty about it. You really don't need as many clothes as I have bought you (actually if we didn't receive any hand me downs it would be just right, but as we did get hand me downs you have a bit too many clothes) so around the house you will be wearing your hand me downs and as we have a few parties and birthdays and events later in the year and earlier next year you will have lots of lovely things to wear to these. And I am going to sell some stuff and donate some too. Makes me feel a little less guilty.

Dylan has been enjoying playing with you Adelita as you are now more and more interactive and it delights him to make you smile and when you do things back. He is also excited for you when you can do something which isd very sweet. He loves his little sister.

I am sure there were many other things I wanted to say to you on this momentous day your half birthday but have forgotten them.

Love you always darling girl.

A beautiful intimate moment

Adelita in her Kozy sling preparing to go to sleep for her morning nap playing with my new teething bling, remembers I am here and gazes up at me and studies me for a bit and then smiles and keeps smiling while looking into my eyes, ah love love love.

I found my friend

I had this friend once. We met in high school. We went to an all girls catholic private school, weird considering we weren't catholic. We met in year 7 her name was Mary. But she left the school at the end of year 8 to go to a public co ed school. We still kept in contact though and I would quite often go to her house for sleepovers. As she is turkish she introduced me to turkish food yum, chocolate laxettes (if we ate too much turkish food), her brother (spunky) and strict parents (but they were always nice to me). I always had fun with her at her house. Although her house was only an average sized suburban brick veneer it seemed like a mansion to me and had things like ducted vacuum, airconditioning, tinted windows, brand new carpet, so I always thought her parents were really rich (they weren't they were just better off than us). One time me and our other friend Penny who I am still friends with went and had a sleepover at Mary's house. We ate lots of food, lots of rich food and watched scary movies, when we decided to go to bed I felt sick so I went and locked myself in the bathroom and threw up all over the bathroom I was mortified and hysterical but her mum came and helped me and helped me clean it up. Mary got into trouble as her parents thought we had raided their liquor cabinet. As if, we were only 13 we were more interested in junk food. I saw my first adult movie at Mary's house, it was her brothers he was about 10 years older than her.

When we were 17 she came out to me and it weirded me out because she was one of the first gay people I knew and I thought she would come on to me, of course she didn't. After I got over the initial shock I realised Mary was still Mary. So we kept hanging out. She moved out of home before me into the inner city (we lived in the burbs) and she got her license and a car before me so we hung out a lot and I would stay at her various places. We would eat and listen to Tori Amos and watch DAAS videos and talk. We had fun. When she came out to her parents they rejected her it was terrible. After a while though she told them she wasn't gay and they 'forgave' her, basically she was living a lie. She tried dating boys it didn't really work.

She was always changing jobs, starting courses and not finishing them and moving. She wanted to be a singer or actor and could sing and act but never really got the break she needed.

When we were in our early 20's we had a falling out. I was going with this great guy Rob, gorgeous blonde Rob who I adored. I was working at Pancake Parlour and living out of home and was at uni doing my degree. I was spending a lot of time with my boyfriend and my pannies friends. This put a lot of strain on my relationship with Mary she was quite possessive of me and would become jealous. She decided to enrol in a course at my uni and the day she went to enrol I asked her to do me a favour which was to drop in a change of subject form for me, (now if anyone hasx ever done one of these they can be a bit of nightmare, the scene from love and other catastrophes is the classic example), she did it but then called me to tell me how stressful it had been and to accuse me of using her and only contacting her when I needed something from her, it hindsight probably true at the time. She basically was telling me to get lost. It was sad but kinda had to happen. I unfortunately took it to the next level and did something pretty awful to her. After this she called me and accused me of this act which I denied. She then basically told me to F off and that was it, I was pretty shaken up but had brought it on myself.

So that was it friendship over.

That was more than 10 years ago, I have thought about her many, many times over these years and have wondered what she was doing and if she was happy. And she appears in my dreams over and over again. I obviously have a guilty conscience about the whole thing.

Her parents shop in the same supermarket as my mum and if I ever went with her I feared running into her or them.

When I joined facebook I tried searching for her to no avail. The other night I found her not on facebook but on a blog so I have read her blog and she is doing alright. She now has a daughter a little younger than Dylan. She has had a husband for 7 years but they are getting a divorce. Her life seems ok. I don't know whether to contact her or not. I need to clear my conscience and apologise or is knowing she is ok enough for me? Food for thought.

I was a terrible friend to her in the end, god I hope I am a better friend to my friends now.

Five months old already.

I cannot believe it the time is going so so fast. Another month gone already.

Things you have been doing this last month are really playing with toys well gripping them and shaking them around. You can hold your head up really well when doing tummy time or being held. You have just discovered raspberries and blow lots and they are messy. You already drool and spew heaps so there is a need for you to wear bibs all the time, lucky I got you some very stylish ones. You love the bath and when I lie you down in it you kick and throw your arms around and smile up at me, I can tell it is one of your favourite places to be, that and in mummy's arms. You may or may not have rolled from back to tummy yesterday I am sure I put you down on your back with a toy in your hand and I turned around to put something in your wardrobe and then you were on your tummy but my memory is sometimes not fabulous so I may have put you on you tummy to begin with, so I am waiting with baited breath to see you do it again. You are still pretty bald too with lots of comments about that, your brother definitely had more hair at your age and your little friend Evie has almost enough for a clip, but the consensus is that even though you are a baldy you are really very very pretty and have gorgeous eyes, many people have said that and I agree my little pretty girl.

We have been spending lots of time with your friend Evie which is lovely now that we live closer to Evie and Abi we can see them so much more and we go to their playgroup now which Dylan loves. Our week is very busy now as Dylan goes to two days of 3 year old kinder, one day of day care, one morning of music and we all go to playgroup so the weekends are a relief. But it is nice to get out and meet new people and see mine and Dylan's friends. We had Dylan's 4th birthday in the last month and it went down really well. Lots of pressies for our spoilt boy. A lovely cubby for Daddy to put up that Dylan and Adelita will both get use out of.

Anyway happy 5 months darling girl next month we will be starting solids, feel a bit sad about that, but that is for another day.

Breastfeeding Adelita

She loves it.
I love it.

We've been doing it from the moment she was born.

My body was made to do this.

I missed this with Dylan. I breastfed him but it was not the same as it is with my girl.

I lost my confidence in the hospital with terribly rough and unsympathetic midwives who forced him on me and told me my nipples were flat.

Second time around I had lovely midwives who let me do it myself and only helped if I asked. They gave me my confidence back by leaving me alone.

I don't remember what he did when he breastfed and what his face looked like or what noises he made and that breaks my heart.

I want to remember my girl and I feeding.

I want to do this forever but will try for two years. I lasted 19 months with Dylan but by then he was only having one feed in the morning.

We used nipple shields, EBM and formula with Dylan.

I have used only EBM with Adelita a couple of times.

Adelita has a breastfeeding face it is different to her everyday face. It is peaceful, relaxed and content.

Her noises range from that sculling noise, to slurping, to murmuring contently.

Oh and she does lots of lovely smiles at me when she pulls off the nipple sometimes leaving me exposed for all the world to see but I don't care. If she isn't smiling at me she studies me, my face.

I was so uptight about feeding Dylan if I did it in public which was rare I covered up. I don't do that anymore I try to be a bit discreet but not too much.

How sad that I was ashamed and embarassed by such a natural and essential thing.

I did still enjoy feeding Dylan despite some issues and I know he enjoyed it too because when I weaned him, he still wanted to keep going, I really should have let him dictate when he stopped but I am not going to beat myself up about it.

I am love love loving this and think Adelita does too.

Love my breastfeeding children.

Four months old.

Well my little beauty you are now four months old and today you discovered you can grab things off mummy or daddy and put them in your mouth or shake them around madly this is a skill you are loving, I can tell from the gleam in your eye when you are doing it and the look of pure concentration tells me it is not random but on purpose. I felt sad for you though when you hit your self in the head with a toy a couple of times and cried with shock that something so fun could also hurt you. Also anything we put near your mouth be it a toy a tissue my nose Dylan's hands you try to put them in your mouth. Daddy and I think you have been trying to say Mama too which gives me a great thrill, for Dada was your big brothers first word. I am loving the flirting you are doing with mummy too, it is happening mostly when you are in my arms after a feed you look at me and I make you smile and then you look away all coy and then look back all serious and I make you smile and it goes on and it is so so cute and special, I love it. I changed the pram over yesterday which made me feel a bit sad that you are growing up so fast so it is now the pusher and the bassinet has been put away not that you went in it much anyway my sling baby. It makes me sad not so much beacuse you are growing up quickly but more so that you may be my last baby and the baby stage is so fleeting. I must admit though I have been buying you clothes in a size 2 because I have many 0's and 1's so I am starting to get some cute things for you to grow into. Anyway that is enough of an update for now. Just wanted you to know that I adore you Adelita. PS I also adore you big brother Dylan.

3 Months old eeeeeeekkkkkkk.

Happy three months to my beautiful girl.. I cannot believe I have a three month old so soon and not a newborn anymore. A proper baby.

Adelita Evangeline you are adored by all of us and I am so in love with you my precious little doll. How I got a daughter I still don't know. I keep expecting someone to show up and claim that she is not mine.

Adelita you are smiling at us and cooing to us which I love. You can push up on your hands and look around you are quite the sitckybeak. You can also roll from front to back and like doing this you have a look of accomplishment on your face after you have rolled. You can look at your toys but are not quite ready to play with them. You love staring at your big brother in adoration following him around the room wherever he goes and he adores you too. He calls you darling and his Alita. You sleep pretty well although have recently discovered catnapping and so do this sometimes much to mummy's chagrin. You have most of your day sleeps in one of your slings which you do complain about getting in but once in you are in heaven. You spend the first part of the night in your bassinet and thn the next part of the night curled up in mummy's arms and attached to my boob. You love your milk and are a super feeder. You had a three month weigh in and now weigh 12 pd 9 which is so good. You are a big un. I think you will be a curvaceous beauty. There is still a debate about your hair colour I think it is dark brown but your daddy thinks it is auburn or stawberry, we will see. Your eyes though are most definitely blue. And you have very pretty long curled eyelashes. You love your flutterbug on your change table and chat and smile at it while getting changed which is cute. You also love to pull off my boob during a feed and flirt with me with those denim eyes or have a chat with me which I love.

I am mad about you my darling daughter and still cannot believe I have you my own little girl.

Photos soon.

If I were.......

Thanks Averil I love these sorts of things:

If I were a month I would be May

If I were a day of the week I would be Sunday

If I were a time of day I would be 7.30am

If I were a planet I would be Earth

If I were a sea animal I would be a mermaid (sorry Averil i did steal this one but i have always found myself drawn to mermaids)

If I were a direction I would be south

If I were a piece of furniture I would be a chaise lounge

If I were a liquid I would be a caramel latte

If I were a gemstone I would be an aquamarine

If I were a tree I would be an apple tree

If I were a tool I would be a spirit level

If I were a flower I would be a lily or tulip

If I were a kind of weather I would be a summer strorm

If I were a musical instrument I would be a singing voice

If I were a colour I would be purple or green

If I were an emotion I would be joy

If I were a fruit I would be an apple

If I were a sound I would be a baby's first coos

If I were an element I would be fire

If I were a car I would be a Mustang Fastback as my husband really desires one of these!

If I were a food I would be smoked salmon

If I were a place I would be a cool green valley

If I were a material I would be jersey cotton

If I were a taste I would be sweet and milky

If I were a scent I would be cool and fresh

If I were an animal I would be a black cat or a chipmunk cos of my cheeks

If I were an object I would be a DVD

If I were a body part I would be a mouth

If I were a facial expression I would be a toothy grin

If I were a pair of shoes I would be a pair of high heeled black and white t-bar mary janes.

One month old today.

Adelita is one month old today can you believe it! Please don't let the time go this fast every month.

Even though it has already been a month I am still in pain from the birth waaaaa. DH asked for some bedroom action about a week ago and I said "I am still bleeding, am still sore, have haemorrhoids and leaky huge boobs, still interested" he he he. Poor DH. He is very patient. I told him I would let him know how I felt after my 6 week post natal appointment, also see what the doctor says. My SPD has also flared up again after a very long walk last thursday to pick DS up from Kinder and then a couple of long shopping trips. I thought it had gone and would be gone by now. Anyway it is easier to manage without a big belly. Poor me. Nah I have this beautiful litt le girl to show for all the pain.

As for my little girl we had her 4 week check yesterday and she has gained 275grams and is now 4890grams or 10pd7 and 57cm long. So she is big but not the hugest weight gain in the world. The MCHN said most people expect babies born big to have huge weight gains but this is often not the case. Anyway she is beautiful and divine and I am in love with her little squishy nose and pushed in chin and roly poly thighs and sighs and grunts and her sofness. I did buy her some girly clothes and she has recieved some very girly clothes so is being dressed in a mixture of Dylan's old things and her new things. Oh how I love girl things. I have finished her nursery not that she is sleeping in it yet but it is all gorgeous and girly, but not too girly! When hubby has put up the blinds in there I will take a photo and post it.

Adelita loves sleeping in here ERGO sling that I got the infant insert for, I was going to use my Baba Sling for the first few months and then the ERGO but after using the baba a couple of times with her in it I realised it wasn't quite the right sling for our purposes plus she loves being upright and in the baba they lie down. So into the ergo she goes a couple of times a day and she falls asleep almost straight away. Our nights are going well too I wake as soon as she gets restless and starts grunting so she doesn't get a chance to cry, I have her all wrapped in a kiddopotamus wrap or a grobag wrap and I feed her still wrapped with no light on and I don't change her so she goes straight back to sleep, it is great why didn't I know how to do this with Dylan. I dread the day she leaves our room and into her cot and own room, have been thinking though maybe when that happens I might get hubby to take one side off the cot and do a sidecar type of thing with her so she is still in with me. Although our bedroom is quite small but it might work. She dislikes being away from me and being laid down in the pram the rocker etc. No smiles as yet but we are getting eye contact and some little noises, oh so cute.

Dylan is still struggling with the night time and going to sleep by himself and staying asleep by himself so he is needing hubby in with him to help him go to sleep and sometimes hubby goes in to help him go back to sleep or he comes into our bed. He had a lot change in the space of a small amount of time so I guess he is still getting used to it all. He calls our new place "new house" and our old place "home" so if you say "we are going home" you get told off and have to call it by the correct name, LOL.

Life as a mum of two is busy and hard but we are getting there.

Two weeks old already and thoughts of more babies!

During my pregnancy and immediately after Adelita's birth I told DH adamantly that I was done at two babies. The pregnancy was very hard due to the SPD which got worse as time went on and I also had terrible fluid retention and high blood pressure. The birth was also very hard not as hard as some people have it but hard enough for me and harder than Dylan's birth. All of this has turned me off my ideal of having three kids and so I have told DH I am done. He actually has witnesses to this too, my midwife Louise heard me saying it to him after the birth. He he. He wishes he had got it on video.

BUT....

Look at what my DH and I created!!!!!!!

How can I stop?

I told my darling friend A that I was having second thoughts about stopping at two and she has reminded me that the lovely newborn phase which is what Adelita is in only lasts about 4 weeks and if that was the reason for having more then it was a bit silly. And she is quite right. I am in love with the lovely gorgeous soft newborn stage Adelita is in and I know it will not last and if I had another baby their newborn phase would only last a short time too. I can uunderstand why Michelle Dugger keeps going back for more!!

BUT.........

Look what else my DH and I created!!!!!!!!!!!!

Surely I could make just one more of these?

Will give it a few years and see if I feel the same in a while. And of course if DH will be in agreeance.