A poem for you baby girl

I am so sorry Adelita I have not been updating my blog with what you have been doing. I don't know why I have not been doing it but every time I go to write I have a mental block and have to walk away silly really. So I write you a poem.

Adelita

Almond eyes
Denim blue
Button nose
Gorgeous ears, flat like mine
Perfect pink lips
Dimples atop two chubby cheeks
Flawless skin
It is all you

High forehead
You got this from mummy
Little chin
Baby hands
Baby feet
Oh so cute
Oh so sweet
Cherub curls
That's what you got

Love saying da
Love saying ma
Love your big brother
Crawling like a little bug
On your pudgy kness
Trying to walk now
With roly thighs and girly bum
Want to be a big girl

But still mama'a baby
Loved
You are so loved
Adored
And cherished
The one we never expected
The girl
My sweet, sweet heart.

8 months old and on the verge....

Of crawling that is. Well you have been on the verge for almost two months now and still not doing it not that I am worried. What does worry me though is that you love sitting on your bottom and doing this pelvic thrust thing which I believe may lead to bum shufling which I do not want you to do. Your granny was a bum shuffler but not for you missy. You hate staying on your tummy too long but I try to push it with lots of toys put in front of you to play with and sometimes I do resort to a dummy just to stretch you out a bit (mind you does not really work) ha! So maybe by 9 months you might be on the move.

Another thing you are doing is trying to pull up on things especially mummy. It is very clever and shows how strong you are. You desperately want to stand up funny thing.

You are loving your baby led solids and tried many new things this month one that you seemed to like a lot was corn on the cob. You have your faves already though, they are blueberries, cheese, cucumber, carrot, pumpkin, meat and toast. But you don't seem to dislike anything so far which is good. You are very handy with your hands and can pick up a blueberry or pea in your palm and get it in your mouth. Your friend Evie does it with her fingers now so I am guessing you will do that in the next couple of months.

You adore your big brother and love to smile at him in between mouthfuls of boob in the morning while we all sit on the couch. You love most things he does and you smile and giggle. Some things you are not fond of are being pushed over, being poked, being pulled and being rough handles, lucky mummy or daddy are usually around to save you. You get it a bit at playgroup too so I am thinking you may end being a tough one. Who knows.

Mummy is still keen to have a third baby and even though some of your brothers behaviour turns me off I realise neither he nor you nor a third bub would be a 4 year old forever. Daddy has said yes too so I guess the ball really is in mummys court and I will see how I am feeling about it all next year. Dylan has requested another baby but a boy one this time, lol. We will see.

Anyway I am sure you are doing lots of other lovely things but I cannot remember at the moment so will tell you another time.

Love you sweet girl.

7 months and new camera

Happy 7 months baby girl. This last month has seen lots of solids activity with you being on (sort of) three meals a day. I say sort of because some days you don't have 3 meals and some days you do and really what you consume is quite minimal. Apart from your porridge with fruit in morning which you wolf down and you also love bread and baby mum mum rusks. You love orange vegies too and I often give you some steamed or roasted chunks for you to eat. So apart from brekky you are doing baby led weaning for your meals. Which I am loving (apart from the mess) but you have taken to it so well and it saves me pureeing all these meals for you. I just cook you up stuff fresh or you eat what vegies we are having. It helps too that we are now eating mostly organic veg and fruit as we get a box delivered weekly. I usually have to top up with some things and try to get organic but can't always. I am trying to also buy only wholemeal bread and have started getting organic pasta, milk and cheese. Plus free range eggs and chicken.

This month also saw you clapping your hands more well sort of clapping you love to wave your arms around and then they make contact like a clap. Your personality is really coming out too you like to smile at people but they really need to work for it. You are starting to recognise the people we see a lot of like Aunty Anna and Evie and Abi, Granny and Grandma and Papa,and you will give them lovely smiles. Strangers though and people we don't see that often really have to work for their smiles but they usually get them eventually. You have also been sitting and working those core muscles you are really very strong and can sit up for quite a long time. You are a very strong willed girl little Adelita and this is coming out more and more every day, if you want something you really try your very hardest to get it. Your teeth are on the move too you already have your bottomo two and now seem to be getting more with you putting you fingers in your mouth a lot and having some bad nights with sleeping. So more coming I suspect.

Mummy got a new digital SLR camera this month and has been using it quite a bit I have so much to learn but I want to have photography as a hobby and want to use my two favourite people in the world as my subjects. So I have been practicing a lot.

Anyway I will more to say for your eight month look in as you have doing more things in the next month.

Bye darling.

PS Mummy is hopeless with this blog and getting the photos in the right position so they are all at the top, oh well!

6 months old today, time is flying.

6 months old today my little beauty. How did we get her so quickly? Yesterday you were a newborn and today you are a baby that can do stuff.

I am so enraptured by you and your developing personality and your overall development as it seems to be happening oh so fast.

It seems like a few weeks ago you were still not really doing much then all of a sudden you did all of this stuff and are doing more every day. Like sitting, playing with your feet, new sounds you are making, more interaction with us. You like touching our faces and looking around at who you are sitting on it is so cute.

Today on your 6 month birthday you got up on hands and knees so I think crawling is just around the corner for you.

We started you on solids 2 weeks ago and so far you have tried pumpkin (loved), avocado (no thanks), broccoli (yuck), potato (nup), apple (you seem to like this), banana (maybe a bit sweet for you) and carrot (loved). I am just mashing stuff up for you at the moment and you can eat it quite well. But in a few weeks we are going to start baby led solids and so I will be giving you chunks of things to eat and see how you go. We skipped right past the rice cereal and purees and this is suiting you and me. I was going to start you on solids at exactly 6 months but a fortnight ago you were so ready for it so we gave it a go and have not looked back. At the moment you are having a milk feed in the morning and then some fruit about half an hour later and then some pumpkin or something for lunch. Next week we might try some porridge with fruit in it for brekky. Yum.

I had no plans of giving you a dummy Adelita but at 6 weeks I gave you one in the car cos you hated it so much and gradually it worked it's way inside and now you seem to be getting a bit more reliant on it to help you sleep. I would like to wean you off it but don't know when to start of how to start. I guess I could just take it away and have a few bad nights/days with you. I would much rather you use me as your dummy and your comfort. I do feed you to sleep every night and every afternoon nap time but a lot of the time as I am transferring you to your bassinet you tend to start opening your mouth for more boobie and so as I can't stay with you all night I usually pop your dummy in so will have to try and figure out a way of getting you to stop doing that. Ha! I only just weaned Dylan off his dummy at 4 and I don't want to be doing this with you.

Mummy has gone a bit overboard on clothes for you and has been feeling guilty about it. You really don't need as many clothes as I have bought you (actually if we didn't receive any hand me downs it would be just right, but as we did get hand me downs you have a bit too many clothes) so around the house you will be wearing your hand me downs and as we have a few parties and birthdays and events later in the year and earlier next year you will have lots of lovely things to wear to these. And I am going to sell some stuff and donate some too. Makes me feel a little less guilty.

Dylan has been enjoying playing with you Adelita as you are now more and more interactive and it delights him to make you smile and when you do things back. He is also excited for you when you can do something which isd very sweet. He loves his little sister.

I am sure there were many other things I wanted to say to you on this momentous day your half birthday but have forgotten them.

Love you always darling girl.

A beautiful intimate moment

Adelita in her Kozy sling preparing to go to sleep for her morning nap playing with my new teething bling, remembers I am here and gazes up at me and studies me for a bit and then smiles and keeps smiling while looking into my eyes, ah love love love.

I found my friend

I had this friend once. We met in high school. We went to an all girls catholic private school, weird considering we weren't catholic. We met in year 7 her name was Mary. But she left the school at the end of year 8 to go to a public co ed school. We still kept in contact though and I would quite often go to her house for sleepovers. As she is turkish she introduced me to turkish food yum, chocolate laxettes (if we ate too much turkish food), her brother (spunky) and strict parents (but they were always nice to me). I always had fun with her at her house. Although her house was only an average sized suburban brick veneer it seemed like a mansion to me and had things like ducted vacuum, airconditioning, tinted windows, brand new carpet, so I always thought her parents were really rich (they weren't they were just better off than us). One time me and our other friend Penny who I am still friends with went and had a sleepover at Mary's house. We ate lots of food, lots of rich food and watched scary movies, when we decided to go to bed I felt sick so I went and locked myself in the bathroom and threw up all over the bathroom I was mortified and hysterical but her mum came and helped me and helped me clean it up. Mary got into trouble as her parents thought we had raided their liquor cabinet. As if, we were only 13 we were more interested in junk food. I saw my first adult movie at Mary's house, it was her brothers he was about 10 years older than her.

When we were 17 she came out to me and it weirded me out because she was one of the first gay people I knew and I thought she would come on to me, of course she didn't. After I got over the initial shock I realised Mary was still Mary. So we kept hanging out. She moved out of home before me into the inner city (we lived in the burbs) and she got her license and a car before me so we hung out a lot and I would stay at her various places. We would eat and listen to Tori Amos and watch DAAS videos and talk. We had fun. When she came out to her parents they rejected her it was terrible. After a while though she told them she wasn't gay and they 'forgave' her, basically she was living a lie. She tried dating boys it didn't really work.

She was always changing jobs, starting courses and not finishing them and moving. She wanted to be a singer or actor and could sing and act but never really got the break she needed.

When we were in our early 20's we had a falling out. I was going with this great guy Rob, gorgeous blonde Rob who I adored. I was working at Pancake Parlour and living out of home and was at uni doing my degree. I was spending a lot of time with my boyfriend and my pannies friends. This put a lot of strain on my relationship with Mary she was quite possessive of me and would become jealous. She decided to enrol in a course at my uni and the day she went to enrol I asked her to do me a favour which was to drop in a change of subject form for me, (now if anyone hasx ever done one of these they can be a bit of nightmare, the scene from love and other catastrophes is the classic example), she did it but then called me to tell me how stressful it had been and to accuse me of using her and only contacting her when I needed something from her, it hindsight probably true at the time. She basically was telling me to get lost. It was sad but kinda had to happen. I unfortunately took it to the next level and did something pretty awful to her. After this she called me and accused me of this act which I denied. She then basically told me to F off and that was it, I was pretty shaken up but had brought it on myself.

So that was it friendship over.

That was more than 10 years ago, I have thought about her many, many times over these years and have wondered what she was doing and if she was happy. And she appears in my dreams over and over again. I obviously have a guilty conscience about the whole thing.

Her parents shop in the same supermarket as my mum and if I ever went with her I feared running into her or them.

When I joined facebook I tried searching for her to no avail. The other night I found her not on facebook but on a blog so I have read her blog and she is doing alright. She now has a daughter a little younger than Dylan. She has had a husband for 7 years but they are getting a divorce. Her life seems ok. I don't know whether to contact her or not. I need to clear my conscience and apologise or is knowing she is ok enough for me? Food for thought.

I was a terrible friend to her in the end, god I hope I am a better friend to my friends now.

Five months old already.

I cannot believe it the time is going so so fast. Another month gone already.

Things you have been doing this last month are really playing with toys well gripping them and shaking them around. You can hold your head up really well when doing tummy time or being held. You have just discovered raspberries and blow lots and they are messy. You already drool and spew heaps so there is a need for you to wear bibs all the time, lucky I got you some very stylish ones. You love the bath and when I lie you down in it you kick and throw your arms around and smile up at me, I can tell it is one of your favourite places to be, that and in mummy's arms. You may or may not have rolled from back to tummy yesterday I am sure I put you down on your back with a toy in your hand and I turned around to put something in your wardrobe and then you were on your tummy but my memory is sometimes not fabulous so I may have put you on you tummy to begin with, so I am waiting with baited breath to see you do it again. You are still pretty bald too with lots of comments about that, your brother definitely had more hair at your age and your little friend Evie has almost enough for a clip, but the consensus is that even though you are a baldy you are really very very pretty and have gorgeous eyes, many people have said that and I agree my little pretty girl.

We have been spending lots of time with your friend Evie which is lovely now that we live closer to Evie and Abi we can see them so much more and we go to their playgroup now which Dylan loves. Our week is very busy now as Dylan goes to two days of 3 year old kinder, one day of day care, one morning of music and we all go to playgroup so the weekends are a relief. But it is nice to get out and meet new people and see mine and Dylan's friends. We had Dylan's 4th birthday in the last month and it went down really well. Lots of pressies for our spoilt boy. A lovely cubby for Daddy to put up that Dylan and Adelita will both get use out of.

Anyway happy 5 months darling girl next month we will be starting solids, feel a bit sad about that, but that is for another day.